Monday, December 29, 2008

i think i'm crazy

i just drove 3 hours to see Bison...he is still at work.

i hate driving, esp by myself. while driving, i always get images of me getting into an accident. whether it be while passing a stupid semi truck and they lose control and run me off the road or me not paying attention to the road and and driving into the ditch. i think of these scenarios and then i have mini panic attack. i think i'm crazy because i think i like this. it's not normal to have such tragic thoughts.

i do this whenever i have friends and family traveling too. last summer my parents went on a motorcycles trip and i kept having thoughts of them getting into accidents. it went so far that i thought about what their funeral would be like and how i would sell their house. i made my mom call me and keep me updated at every stop they made, which i think kind of annoyed her although my stepdad kept reminding her to call me. these are horrible thoughts and i hate it. it's disturbing.

1 comment:

Keep moving forward said...

No you're not cause I do the same thing and I don't think Im crazy..ha. I don't think I'm in denial. Glad to hear your holiday went well. Happy New YEar!!