never thought i'd have to label my banana...

this morning i woke up without a voice. before i left for work i thought to myself, when i get there i will have some hot chocolate which will make my throat feel better. i knew i still had a packet of hot chocolate in the cupboard so didn't grab one. i get to work, make hot water, look in the cupboard and see that somebody had taken my hot chocolate. i was pissed. i know it's only hot chocolate, but why do people think they can just take other peoples things? last week my string cheese went missing out of the fridge. so today i labeled everything with my name on it, including my banana. i just figured that we were all adults and i wouldn't of had to do that. i was wrong. how irritating and i can't wait till thanksgiving break.

just draw a penis on it...

so i was showing my students how to put this lion art project together, like where the body, head and tail go. i put it all together when a little girl says, "if you want to make it a boy just draw a penis on it." it completely took me off guard and i could only respond with "uhhh, no...we don't do that." lord knows i didn't want 19 lions going home with penis's on them...parents would probably wonder what the heck i was teaching their 4 year olds.

things with Bison are super good. he is so amazing and i am lucky to have him in my life. he stayed with me saturday on his way back from hunting and we just sat and talked for over 3 hours. not once did i have the urge to turn on the tv or fall asleep. it was a good conversation. he met my mom last thursday on his way to go hunting...i had anxiety about that. i have never had my mom meet a boyfriend. my long term ex she had already known, and no other guys were good enough for me to take home. so this was huge. she really liked him and told me to hold on to him.

i hate christmas shopping...it should be a joyous and fun time of year but it just makes me crabby. salespeople are very unhelpful, other shoppers push, and the lines are ridiculous. i swear, next year i'm starting in april.

let it snow...

you would think after living in ND for almost 26 years that i would be used to the snow...but no such luck.

it is not only snowing, but it's a flipping blizzard. absolutely ridiculous. why i live here...no idea whatsoever. i HATE being cold, yet it is cold here 8 months out the year. i can't even see out the window cause there is so much snow caked on it.

good thing about the blizzard...parent/teacher conferences were postponed till next week. bad thing about blizzard...parent/teacher conferences were postponed till next week. i had one night of them last night and really wanted to just get them over with tonight. but then again i was exhausted and couldn't imagine putting in another 13 hour day.

i was supposed to go see Bison tomorrow...pretty sure interstate is closed at the moment. it's supposed to clear up tomorrow afternoon but i don't really believe those weather guys. another con about long distance relationships in ND-that mother nature decides when and how often two people can see each other 8 months out the year.

busy busy busy

i have been so crazy busy lately. do you ever get so busy that one day you wake up and wonder what you did the last two weeks?

between halloween, working two jobs and getting ready for parent/teacher conferences i seriously have had no life whatsoever. i was sleeping by 9:30 last night and didn't even get to see the last part of the hills. but, i woke up at 5:30 this morning and they were replaying it (imagine that) so i got to see that heidi got fired!! man, spencer is a douche...every time he pops his weaselly face into an episode i want to change the channel.

i did remember to watch jon and kate plus 8. i love those little kids, they are SO cute. then the duggarts were on, 17 and counting. really?!? 17 children! her vagina is like a clown car!

i start conferences tomorrow. i do them wed and thurs till like 8 each night. that means i will be working for 13 hours each day....ew. but, i get friday, monday and tuesday off so that is a plus. i'm going to see bison this weekend. we are going to the Buckcherry concert sunday night, i am definitely pumped for that.

also, an ex (we'll call him the Spencer of Fargo) had checked my myspace page and saw i was dating someone. he wrote to me to ask about it. my life became none of his business when he decided he didn't want to hang out with me anymore. it's not like we were friends before we dated, why would we be friends now?? i think he's an arrogant person. i think only in certain situations you can be friends with an ex. in this case with the Spencer of Fargo....no such luck. and it just so happens that this guy knows Bison, because he works with Bison's ex-wife. god, it sounds like a soap opera. it just irritates me that he even asked me about it, because like i mentioned, we are not friends. i guess if i saw him on the street i'd say hi, but i would never call, text or email him. and the fact that i let it bother me, bothers me even more.

little annoyances...

i live with my sister (K.) and her boyfriend. (D). it's a pretty good situation: i have the downstairs all to myself and K. is always cooking for me and taking care of me, and it's pretty cheap rent. although...

she can't seem to EVER put shit away. we do have to share the kitchen so this is a problem. for example, i come home today and the dishwasher is unloaded BUT all of the dam dishes from it are sitting on the counter. really?! like it's so hard to reach that extra 2 feet and put them in the cupboard?

or somebody will eat crackers or peanuts and when they are finished they leave them on the counter. so annoying!! walk the extra foot and put them back in the pantry!!

i clean up after children all day long, the last thing i want to do is come home and clean up after my 28 year old sister and her 29 year old boyfriend. perhaps i need to give them a lesson on "how to be responsible"...

laid back weekend

Friday...

Bison got here like at 6 and i made him supper. it was a huge success...i didn't burn the house down and nobody got sick.

we had a good conversation about the distance thing. i told him i was scared to put too much time or feelings into this. he said he completely understood and saw my point of view. he agreed with me but also said that he wants me in his life. i said that it would be easier to end things now than a year from now. he once again agreed with me and once again said he still wanted me in his life. i told him i would never move to where he lived...it's too big of place, it's too cold (yes, i understand this is ND and everywhere is cold, but on the east side of the state it is at least 10 degrees colder), it's too far away from my family and i think it's more of a party/college city. i told him i wouldn't even move there for him, because i know i would grow to resent him for it. he said he would move to where i live, but he just got this new job that is paying him outrageously well. i can't expect him to give that up for my $20,000 a year job. he asked if i just wanted to end it now....when he said that i got a pit in my stomach and made me super sad. i'm not ready to not have him in my life. i told him that we should give it 3 months of not talking or thinking about it and then see where things are then. he thought that was a good idea. and it may be kinda dumb to do that, but i really enjoy his company, he makes me laugh and most importantly i'm not annoyed with him. no point in stressing about it now, i just am going to take it one day at a time.

i'm amazed that i'm in a healthy relationship where i can have an adult conversation. what i mean by this is that i can say my thoughts and feelings about anything and i don't get belittled for it or yelled at for it...my Long Term Relationship i once had was like that. i feel i can say anything to Bison and he actually listens to me...not just goes "uh huh, yea". he responds and asks questions about things.

Friday night we watched The Strangers. keeps you on your seat and definitely scary, but a dumb ending.

Saturday...

we lounged around,watched a movie, went for a walk and then went to the corn maze with my co-workers that night. it was okay but really cold and windy. after that Bison and i went to a bar and my sister, her boyfriend of some others met us there. he got pretty drunk and i wasn't even annoyed with him. i didn't drink a whole lot, i'm still not feeling good.

Sunday...

we just hung out all day...my sister made us breakfast and supper. i live in the basement of my sister and boyfriends house. everyone got along great and we all watched football together. it was a nice, relaxing day...Bison just left and i'm already kinda missing him. it's weird to actually want to be around someone and not get irritated with them. i don't even know the last time i hung out with a guy who didn't bother the shit out of me. it's kinda a nice feeling...

good times are soon to be had!!

i got some great news last night...my BFF, numero uno C accepting a job here and is moving in 3 weeks! and, she found a place to live about 7 blocks away. i am pumped. C is the bestest pal a gal can ask for. she always knows what to say at the right time. she is the only person i can tell ANYTHING to and i know she won't judge me for it. i'm so excited that we'll be living in the same town again!

C and i can have fun doing anything. one time, C, me and Darlene* had fun drinking wine and playing shower pictionary (fully clothed). one person would open the dictionary and randomly find a word then draw a picture of it in the shower with bath crayons while the other two would sit on the floor and try to guess what it was. i don't like to toot my own horn or anything, but i did get to take the bragging rights of winning home on the one (toot, toot). it may sound dumb, but in ND sometimes we have to make our own fun.

Bison will be here tonight. i am going to attempt to make him supper. i don't cook, so it should be interesting. i feel like i owe it to him. last time i was there he made me supper and breakfast, which was awesome. he's a great cook...which makes me all the more nervous to make something for him. oh well, if he doesn't like it, he'll just have to deal with it.

* Darlene is girl who C and i used to hang out with. we all were like the 3 musketeers and even got matching tattoos on our foot. Darlene then moved to the Minnesota and changed completely. she has been through ND on her way back to her hometown numerous times in the last year, and has not once bothered to call. i haven't talked to her in over a year, and now Darlene is pulling some shit on C and C is getting tired of it. it's really sad, because us three had an amazing friendship (or so i thought) and i have no idea what went wrong with it. i hope if i did anything to offend Darlene that she would have told me. oh well...people come into your life for a reason or a season. i guess she was just the season....